Just thinking...

I thought about life a lot while I was in Europe, and as I was organizing my computer today I ran across this. My trip to Europe meant so much to me, and personally I feel like I grew a lot. When I went overseas I intended to figure myself out and gain a better understanding of life and my place in this BIG world. I know I have a lot left to learn ( and I'm glad I do), but finding this and revisiting some of the thoughts from my trip was nice. I need to make a big list of important thoughts to live by.. or a chart of goals and refresh myself every so often. Keep reaching higher. Be thankful. Appreciate the small things. Live in the moment. Love always.

Thoughts... from Europe Trip 2008

What defines me? What makes me who I am?
What impact am I going to have on this world?
What impact do I want to have on this world?

Sometimes I get scared. I get scared of dying. Of losing. Of hurting.
There are moments when I wish I could freeze the world.
I am excited for the future.. to see what comes next, but I am very happy with where things are and I'm in no hurry to get to the end. Why do we always tend to plan and rush towards the future when we should be here and be now?
Happy some day isn’t the answer for me. I'm not waiting... I am happy.
Happy always is what I'm striving for.
There's no reason to wait for happiness when you have the ability to access it at any time.
Attitude is everything.
You can make yourself miserable in any situation.
You can make yourself enjoy any moment.
It’s a choice.
Live your dreams today.
Don’t put them off.
Of course, I understand that there are things you have to work for and make sacrifices for. If that's the case-- make it a point to enjoy the process too.

Take care of your body. And LOVE it. It is the only one you have. Invest in it. Do the best things you can for it.

Take care of things. Yes, they can be replaced, but waste not.

I understand that:
I change. I evolve. I’m a work in progress.
I have to live the life I make for myself.
So, I’m going to do all I can to make it good.

My family never lets me down.
They ALWAYS make things special.
They see the beauty in me even when I’m ugly,
They share in my successes and celebrate them.
They make me feel important.
They make me feel like I can change the world.
They will bend over backwards for me.
They laugh at me AND with me. Even when I am stupid.
I WILL ALWAYS LOVE THEM.
If you love me, so will you.


Sometimes I feel the pain of the world. And. It hurts.

Sometimes I just want to have fun. And not worry.

I don’t like to lose control.

I can’t see my future, but I like it that way.

I want to share my life with someone.
I want that beautiful love.
I want to be wanted.
I want to want.
I want someone who will hold me. All through the night.

I want to be pretty.
And feel good about myself and my body.
I want to be smart
I want to touch people.
I want to be silly.
Sometimes looking back is dangerous.
Don’t hold on to the past.
Just carry it with you or..
You’ll miss the present.
And be unprepared for the future


I love singing and dancing.
I love laughing.
And laugh- crying.




That's it for now... to be continued some time. :)